Dear god,
I had always heard "god helps those who help themselves" . I never understood the meaning till I saw it happening with myself. I don't know whether I am a fool or what, but I don't understand something till I haven't experienced it. I learn only from experiences, not from lectures. I always knew you were there, besides me. But I never understood what you had been trying to teach me. You wanted me to open my eyes, speculate and understand that the life I was leading was not what you wanted me to lead. That everybody deserves their share of happiness and respect. You had directed me , given enough hints, but it was me who kept my eyes shut! I just shut out all the signs and decided to cling to the cobweb. I had enervated my senses struggling in the wrong direction. I had victimised myself for too long. I had developed a thinking that I can't get out of it, inspite of being unhappy, being hemmed by the situation, I had started to believe that this is my destiny. I knew my soul had been hurt, it wasn't growing, it was just being impoverished. Still, I could not take that leap towards my salvation. I liked the routine, I liked the monotony of being sad. Everybody loathes change, so did I .
Somehow, I was punishing myself, and another soul. But , you do perform miracles. You do that in the form of angels and the secret messages they carry. You granted me with the strength, and the wisdom to move out, to open my eyes and see that I deserve to be happy, to be free. That I was commiting the biggest mistake of my life. I had made mistakes, plenty of them! And I needed to get out of the cobweb. I was directed to the path towards my salvation. You helped me at each and every step, through one thing or the other, through one person or the other, you kept sending the messages. My faith in you has grown manifold. I don't care about what people say, but now I can feel my soul growing. I can feel my mind opening to new ideas. I am thinking about myself, my future , my dreams instead of some one else's . I am in love with my life now. I truly feel like your favourite child. It wasn't easy, it came with a lot of pain. But you granted me the strength too.
Thank you god, from the bottom of my heart. You exist, and you do perform miracles! :)
